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MothaGoose

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I Hate My Life Sometimes
« on: September 24, 2019, 01:06:57 AM »
Pardon me if this isn't coherent. I just want to ramble about how sucky my life feels right now. I am very bored but can't do anything but type with the fingers on my left hand because my one-year-old is suckling at my breast and if I do so much as move my right arm he would wake up and be cranky because he has only been asleep for 15 minutes.

My tooth hurts.  I went to the dentist a week ago to have this tooth filled after its old filling fell off and she didn't give me what I wanted. Instead she gave me a temporary filling saying I give my tooth a month and if it doesn't hurt she will give me a permanent filling. Said that if the tooth hurts then I either get a root canal or have the tooth pulled. Now it hurts and I'm wondering why the eff didn't I have it pulled when I first went to her. Now I have to spend additional money for the extraction. The root canal treatment isn't an option because it is so effing expensive and I am trying to make ends meet because my eldest is having her bday son (turning 7) and we are planning a small party for her, something she never had from birthdays 2-6. I still don't have any gift wrapped for her and I wonder where the hell I am going to get the money and I don't want to give her small trinkets like what she has received in her previous birthdays because I want this to be a little more special.

MY youngest is still on the boob and it's getting really annoying how he grates his teeth on my nipple.

My goddamn tooth still hurts.

My eldest us growing and I feel like I don't give her enough hugs. She is always seeking for attention and sometimes behaving badly. I'm not sure if she's doing it on purpose so I would pay her attention or if she's just being a kid. I hate that I don't see her as my kid but an annoying brat who's out to ruin my day, every single day.

My hubby is planning to work in Australia and I have ambivalent thoughts about it. It would greatly help with the expenses, sure, but I do not want him missing out on the kids growing up.

I hate that I am ranting when I know I have to be thankful because I have a roof over my head and I have enough food for the whole family and all that but today I just don't feel so thankful. I feel lazy and unmotivated and kind of sad that things are the way they are. I hope my mood picks up soon. I don't want to spend the entire day wallowing.

My little one has moved to the left boob. The right one does not hurt anymore, but this sure does.

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Re: I Hate My Life Sometimes
« Reply #1 on: September 24, 2019, 01:24:38 AM »
Good lawd. Toothaches are horrible. Better get that tooth to the dentist, stat!

I hate my life sometimes, too, so you're not alone. I just don't relate to the talk about kids and boobies, so please don't mind my lack of sympathy on that part (okay, so I just tried to pinch my left nipple, and yeh that hurt, so maybe I understand a bit?)

I don't know you (does anyone here know anyone else?) but feel better. Not for your kids or your husband but for yourself.