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School Still Sucks
« on: September 05, 2019, 01:45:08 AM »
I made an alliteration! Yay, me. I say that with a poker face and a really low voice, almost like a growl.

I hated school when I was younger, before I realized that it's school and a good job afterward or I end up a hobo in the streets. Okay, even when I was really already serious about studying in college, I still hated school. I just had to push myself and attend the classes and do the reports and pass the exams and graduate. And I did. I did good, was able to pay my student loans. it gave e a big boost, a fulfillment I did not know I could feel. It's like I had been energized, given back the mojo I lost when my parents got divorced.

I was super-charged that last year, I enrolled for a masters program. Now a year after, the old ugly feeling has started creeping on me again. The load of reports is killing me. I have to be brain dead at work for me to at least be able to work efficiently (the work is kinda routine to me now and pays good moolah), and then I have to sit through boring reports from my classmates and write boring reports myself just so I could get credit for the courses I am taking. I want to conk myself in the head for putting myself through this, but I also want the degree. To prove that I can do great things even if I went through a rough patch in my life.

Sorry this is such a boring post but I had to tell someone.

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Re: School Still Sucks
« Reply #1 on: September 29, 2019, 06:45:00 PM »
School sucks, yes. And this is coming from someone who's in school every day.

It's nice to know that you got yourself clean and that you're taking steps to better yourself. That ugly feeling - I get that too. Some kind of ennui I couldn't put a finger on. But hey, I'm sure that would pass. Once you got your reports down pat, you'll be in better spirits. I had a phase like that too when I was studying. But I just had to push past the dark cloud of looming doom or something. I gather from what you say that you're bored from the reports. I think you're bored because the reports are not challenging - just numerous.

If I'm right, then you'll be okay with those just as long as you push yourself. Take one paper, one report at a time. When I'm writing a paper I always fall out of focus and pay attention to mundane things and then the deadline comes up and I panic and stress myself out the night before submission. Is this what's happening to you? Then get rid of your distractions - social media, things you think you need to do but really don't. Get yourself those website blockers and hjust limit Google to websites that you need for your paper. Eat right and hydrate, too. I found that when I am loaded with junk I tend to feel more sluggish and not up to the tasks I set myself to accomplish.

You have a goal, so keep that in mind as you work on your reports. You CAN do great things. The fact that you have risen from an ugly place before is already proof. You seem like you can do so much more. Just push. Rest if you must, like the adage goes, but don't quit.

Plus, you can always rant here. ;-)